I've tried to change my mindset, to ignore it, to think positive, to acknowledge there are people who've been waiting for longer than I have, to convince myself it's worth the wait, to take anxiety pills, to try out new hobbies that won't make me think about it...you name it. Honestly, I think it's starting to work, a bit differently than I thought tho...because I am reaching a point where I do not care any longer if it will be grated or not. I'll give it few more months then I believe I'll take some time travelling then maybe move to UK or Ireland..why not even Canada! Been living here for 4 years, and yes, I'd love to live as a resident as well, to adopt a doggy, to consider buying a property, maybe in the future move to Melbourne or Hobart, but if that doesn't happen .. oh well .. fought so hard these years to stay here, to have my worth validated by case officers, to demonstrate I'm what they need, and spent money in lawyers, documents, applications and so on.. just to finally realise that I am worth it, if not for Australia, maybe for another country.