I really feel for you, as I was in a similar situation myself. You really, really, need to talk to your hubby and you will feel so much better. As someone else said, try to work through this - take up yoga or medication as it really does help. After 2 years in Oz I grew to adore it and was (am) devastated to have to leave to come back to the UK. It is not at all easy to come back to the UK either. You are treated as a leper and cannot get work, bank accounts or anything until you have been here for a minimum of three months. Do try hard to get through this, move up to QLD as it is wonderful there. Hot and humid though, but summer all year round. Good luck and happy thoughts.