Hi and thanks everyone for your replies!
It helps to know your not the only ones going through this! Melza thanks your right we have to go with our gut feelings and just do it. And I would kill to have some muddy wellies and a bit of good old drizzle right now.
Lady Rainicorn thanks for your reply I have been reading some of your old posts already and feel for you, but glad you back and feeling happier.
we just feel really home sick for the country itself really, the green grass,green fields, trees, wildlife, seasons. We lived quite rurally and miss going for walks and the scenery. We miss family, but there has been issues with some members of our family, some have just decide to stop all contact like we are gone and forgotten! But there are elements of resentment almost that we left, it was our decision so we have got to live with it. Which is true of course but we are still your family and feel let down. There was never much support from family in the past so we know that is never going to change. We left the UK to give our kids a better life, to live out doors more and have more family time and less work. Which is not the case, my husband works long long days and when he is off I work, so never time together and we both feel like single parents at times. The kids are now saying when is daddy coming home and do you really have to go to work? We have been to marriage counselling and individual therapy since being here, one thing Oz has done for us is make us a stronger couple.
Still got so much to think about and I know a trip back would be helpful, but don't think it's on the cards financially. We went back two years ago for four weeks and it was nice. In October so it was cold and damp but then we knew it was only a trip and it felt like a holiday. We are starting to look at areas and jobs, so we will see what happens but Quoll I think your right we do need to set a time limit as I'd hate to drag the kids back when they get too much older. But most of all I just want to feel like I belong!
Watch this space :confused: