A huge thanks for all your posts gave me a lot to think about. First thing I'm going to do is develop a thick skin and keep going, second is to find a sport for me minus children and then who knows.
I am already a member of a gym, attend a weekly playgroup, swimming lessons and gymnastics. I have met Brits, Oz's and Japanese so maybe I am looking for too much but most of all maybe too soon.
At least you have all made me realise it has happened to others - maybe i'll stop beating myself ...for now anyway lol