Thank you so much for your reply , it is comforting to know i am not the only person feeling like this i have had a terrible day today trying to hold myself together and cant imagine what tomorrow will be like at the airport. I to will continue to post and let you know how i am doing as i hope you will to. The pain at the moment is intence but i am trying to put my bravest face on ( not easy at all) so as to help my son as he will feel worse seeing me keep crying. We are out for a meal tonight with my other two children and i dont even feel like food at the moment . I will let you know anything i can that will be of help like skype i am a novice at this to though i have used it before so between us we can muddle through we could message via facebook or e mail if that is any help other than that i will continue to use this thread . Take care xxx