JRose18

Hi Diane - Thanks for your support. It's good to know that there are people who understand and feel the same way. All that you've said is very encouraging so thank you for your comment. Hopefully I cant arrange something but for now I think I need to save money, do some research and work out what kind of jobs I could do over there and just generally get things sorted out.

Hey Peccavi - Thank you so much for your support and encouragement. I think you completely get where I'm coming from and I especially like the 'oil and water' idea, that's so on point and exactly how I felt growing up. It was like having two lives but not fully in either. I don't think a lot of people (well, out of the people I've met anyway) understand the mental and emotional issues relating to moving countries especially when it's not your choice. I don't think my parents understood that when we moved, but that's ok because they did it for the right reasons and I have a lot of respect for the decision they made and their good intentions and I don't blame them for my current feelings, but I have to move forward. I haven't built up a fantasy and I know the realities of life in England. I've been back there enough to know, so thanks for the support on that issue, I appreciate it. So I guess what I want to say is thanks so much for your advice, I feel better already. Talking to friends about it just doesn't help anymore because they don't get it, and why would they anyway, can't blame them for that, so it's really great to have input from someone who gets it. I know I need to put in the hard work to make it happen, I'm not afraid of that and if at the end I decide to stay after all, I won't have sacrificed a thing because I'll be happy and that's genuinely all I care about at the moment, especially since most of my friends are getting on with things so well here. Anyway, thanks so much, I really value your input so thanks for taking the time to comment.

I didn't intend this as a wind up at all. There are heaps of pros and cons about living in either country, the only thing I'm asking for help with here concerns my happiness and which country and lifestyle would be better for me. I have nothing against either country, I'm just considering how I want my lifestyle to be and what I want my future to look like that's all thank you for reading though, perhaps my wording isn't the best, hope this clears things up a bit

Hi, I'm new to this but I think it will be a good way to get some help from people who actually understand as talking to friends just doesn't help anymore. Basically, I moved to Australia (2hrs north of Sydney) with my family when I was 10 and have been here for 12 years now. I was reluctant to move but what can you do when you're 10? I'm still bitter about losing 12 years with my Grandparents and other family and friends and I can't seem to get to grips with all the anger and confusion from that time even though it's been ages. I went back to the UK when I finished school for 6 months which was fantastic. I missed my family and friends but not the country. Ever since I got back I've been really trying to give things a good go but I just end up feeling lonely and like I don't belong in Australia. People from home think I'm crazy for wanting to leave the beaches, weather and lifestyle here but it's just not for me. That stuff means nothing if you're unhappy, I don't even like going to the beach or being outdoors and cannot stand the heat! I just feel a bit lost and I would happily move back to England right now! The issue with that is that I'd have nowhere to stay as there's no room at my Grandads and I wouldn't want to bother anyone else. Just wondered if anyone had any advice? If I decide to move back (its highly likely) I wouldn't even know where to start with money, renting a place, which area, shipping my stuff, getting a job. I have a British passport as well as Australian though so that's a start I guess. I don't want to make hasty decisions but I'm so desperately unhappy here that I need to do something and I just think that moving back to England would make me so happy that I'd be able to tackle all the other stuff as it comes. Would love any advice or tips about whether I should move back or not. Thanks.