jono119

Hello to all! I have only posted once on here before but I am hoping for some sort of relief by sharing my story... I have recently been on holiday to the UK and since coming back I have never been as depressed and as upset in my entire life as I am now. I have lost interest in most things, including my music and the gym and just want to go home. People say it's because I have just got back, but I know deep down I have to give the UK a go for myself. There is just one problem....my extravagant lifestyle. To cut a long story short I have a car on St George finance of which I owe $64,000. The car is now worth about $44,000. I am not allowed to sell the car due to the fact that the loan is secured and the car is the security, and I am finding it hard to apply for a personal loan to cover the shortfall. I am just trying to do the right thing, I don't want to run off. I know this is all of my own doing and I regret 100% of buying it but I need to find a way out. Has anybody ever had that feeling of pure suffocation and being stuck? I have been so down that I have seen counsellors through my workplace and last night I even went to the doctor who has, of no surprise to me, gave me a dose of anti-depressants. I know it is my fault, I know I shouldn't have purchased the car and I honestly believe it was to 'keep me occupied' over here as I have never truly settled. If anybody can offer any advice or see a way out of this mess then please let me know. I have never felt this down before and feel like I am going round in circles. I appreciate any help I can get to assist me out of my situation. Thank you.

I'd just like to say thank you to all of you that replied, I really appreciate your comments. In terms of qualifications, doesn't the two IT Networking ones count? I'm a little confused with that. Also, I'm not counting on getting back with my partner, it would be an added bonus of being back and at least friends is better than nothing. I've thought about going back to the UK for quite a bit before meeting the 'love of my life' so it's not all contributing towards that. I think the plan now is to just get my head down and save while waiting for this citizenship. Like most of you say, at least I can come back out if I need to. I'm determined to make the UK work, especially since I see it in a different light now, I hope you can understand where I'm coming from. I'm not sure if anybody will understand this, but sometimes I get the feeling that I've wasted the last part of my childhood, being with friends and having a good time. I think it would have been better for me to come out a few years later, although I would have probably felt the same. The Sky+ subscription is viewed over a little device called a Slingbox which transmits the video down the net. If anybody would like more info, please feel free to PM me, if you can. Thanks :biggrin:

Hello Everyone! This is my first ever post so I hope I'm doing this right! I simply just wish to share my story and receive advice. I've been debating signing up on here for months! I really want to return to the UK now after 4 (and a bit) years, I understand living here is better financially and creates a great future, but my heart is over-ruling all of that This is how it began.... I moved out from the UK in September 2008 with my parents, at the age of 17, after completing my GCSE's. I never really thought the day would come round to actually moving to Australia, I just thought it was one of those things that gets mentioned but eventually sweeps itself under the carpet. After setting foot in our rental house for the first time, the shock hit me! I cried for days like a big softy! I eventually enrolled into a local high school and returned into year 11 to complete the Aussie school year. I decided I did not want to continue into year 12 (probably a bad decision at the time, but hey I was young and my mind was all over the place), so I enrolled in a TAFE course to study IT Networking Cert III. This soon passed and I came to the conclusion that IT wasn't really for me, so I helped my friends parents out with their camper trailer franchise. Then in 2010, one of his friends took me on as an apprentice cabinet maker (or as we poms know it, a carpenter). This lasted a whole year before the boss telling me that he was struggling to get work and I could take the following week off and to wait for his call on the Wednesday. That call, however, never came and he left me in the dark with the job. So I sat around for a bit wondering what to do, went on an annual trip back to the UK to see my family and friends, then came back to Perth to start Cert IV in IT Networking. I figured I should give it a second chance as I may like it! But I was wrong, I was completely put off IT even more! So I went on my annual journey in July 2012 back to Leeds. We stayed a bit longer this time, as it was my 21st and I wanted a party in the UK to share with my family and friends. I had a great time, even met some amazing new people through some DJ gigs I did with an old mate. But even more, I met a special someone and fell in love. Then I had to leave for Perth again, so with me and my partner heartbroken, I departed. October 2012 and I got a job doing door to door sales for Foxtel. Absolutely hate it! About to hand my notice in next week! And then I get a message from my partner saying that the long distance thing is too hard and for us just to be friends. All of this seems to have mounted on top of one another and I'm about to burst!! I'm applying for citizenship next month so I'm hoping to grab that before making any huge decisions. I've just never really 'clicked' with Australia. I'm not moaning saying it's a horrible country, because it's not, it's a great country, I just feel that it's not for me. So now I want to get another job, save like mad, and hopefully return to the UK in July/August this year. Who knows, maybe I can even rebuild the bridges to my relationship. For the past 4 years, I've not been the happiest person, and although I'm only 21, I feel like I'm wasting my life away and want to be around the people I love and care about the most. The saying you never realise what you have until it's gone comes to mind. On the plus side, at least I've found a way to watch a Sky+ subscription! I apologise for the huge essay, I just finally needed to get my experience off my chest. If anybody has any advice as to what I should do, please comment back. Please be nice though! :biggrin: