Hi to you all,
This forum has been a fabulous source for me during my time planning and subsequently moving to Oz. I spent a lot of time reading other members stories in the Moving Back to UK section to give myself a balanced view of life as an expat on the other side of the world. I'm posting in this section because I'm at a very low point and would really appreciate other peoples advice.
I applied to emigrate to Oz as a single woman with lots of enthusiasm and dreams of a better future for myself. I then went on to meet the love of my life which threw a spanner in the works regarding staying in the UK or moving out here. Over time it was evident we wanted to be together and so the move to Oz became our dream. As you will all know - getting on the emigration rollercoaster is not for the faint hearted and the whole process of getting our visa's took 3 years. During that time we suffered a miscarriage and because age isn't on my side we couldn't afford to wait until we arrived in Oz before we started trying for another baby. 3 months before we were due to move we found out we were expecting!! At this point we felt we owed it to ourselves and to our future baby to move and set up a new life on the other side of the world, god knows it had taken over our whole life and the idea of not going after everything we'd been through seemd crazy.
We arrived when I was 3 months pregnant so I found it hard to get work but OH found a job straight away and everything else fell into place, we loved it. Our gorgeous baby boy was born healthy and is a joy to be around. I have got a good social life as a mum with other mums and bubs so do get out and about regulalrly. Ever since he was born though I've had tremendous feelings of homesickness and panic that we have made a big mistake moving here and leaving family behind now that we have a family of our own. I worry that we have taken our son away from his family and won't have the chance to develop relationships with them, at least not regular, everyday kind of relationships. Suddenly the reason's we moved here don't seem relevant anymore and the circumstances in which we made our decision to move here have completely changed. We would like to try for another baby soon as the same age issue is ever present and I'm worried the feelings will just get worse if we have another baby. I'm not even sure I could go through a pregnancy with a toddler by myself, especially feeling like this. I wonder if it would be better for us to go back to the UK then try again for a baby as the support I feel I am missing out on is there. I feel like I am going mad.
OH doesn't want to go back to the UK but will if absolutely necessary and I'm now in a position where I can see the benefits of being back in England near family. We have been here a year and I'm frightened of making the move back and then regretting it.
I'd be grateful of any advice, I'm just going round in circles.......
