My heart breaks for all of you feeling trapped and dissatisfied with your lot. I' felt exactly the same. I was only living in Australia because my husband was! But when he retired...out of the blue..he told me he wanted to come back home to UK...to live....after 50 years of life in Oz! And here we are..back in our beloved Yorkshire.....with all its green..and familiar things! It's so beautiful...our hearts and our souls belong here! I wish you all the joy in life...and hope that one day..you can be back...where you too belong xxx