Hey Rach,
I'm sorry to hear you're feeling a bit crappy at the moment, I totally understand your predicament. Let me tell you a bit about me....
I came to Australia last August, 6 weeks prior to this, moving to Australia hadn't even crossed my mind. Leaving England hadn't even crossed my mind.
I met a guy, we'd been friends for a few months, I knew he was planning on coming over here and as his leave date got closer and closer I began to realize I liked him. He liked me too and a week before he flew out, he told me this. During his last wek in the UK he (somehow) managed to talk me in to moving to Australia with him. I quit my job, sold my house, said goodbye to all my friends and family and 6 weeks later got on a plane to Sydney.
Was this a good idea? I still don't know...
I love being here in Australia with him and we've just celebrated a year together which is lovely, but I have made zero friends here, I don't have a job as we move around quite frequently, he doesn't have a penny to his name right now as he is developing a new online business and I am living off the sale of my house.
Everyday I think about going home. But would that really be better? Am I (are we) idolising the UK? Australia is a great country, you have a family and a life here, does the UK offer you real happiness or would heading home without your husband leave you feeling just as crappy?
For me being with the man I love and working towards a great future together beats the urge to leave. Yes I get lonely, sad sometimes and feel out of my depth but its an experience and every experience is worth embracing and finding the positives in.
Are your children happy here? How would they feel going back to the UK? They'd be in the same boat as you're in now, leaving friends and everything they know behind.
Its a tricky situation you find yourself in, hopefully these responses will help you see things in a clearer light and lead you in the right direction
All the best, Maxine