Hello all.
I arrived in Sydney in November 2013 and soon after arriving, felt I had made a catastrophic mistake of emigrating and Australia was not the picture I had imagined. I have struggled adapting to the way of life here, don’t feel like I belong, feel incredibly homesick and miss the things I took for granted in the UK EVEN THE COLD WEATHER. My situation is this, Im a single with a 6 yr old daughter and emigrated hoping for a better quality and affordable of lifestyle and a chance to start life again following a marriage break up. Now I realise that this may not be that easy, I moved to Sydney because this is where the job came up first when I was ready to move (on a 457). I cant warm up to Sydney, I have visited Perth which is where I thought I would settle (as most people seem to talk highly of it), but was so disappointed by it after spending 4 days there driving to different suburbs and trying to get a ‘feel of the place’ and meet people. I am due to visit Melbourne next again to get a feel of if I could settle there. Maybe im not getting something right.
Part of me thinks I could find a new start of life if I could just settle, stop regretting my move, meet people I can get along with and have a sense of belonging.
My problem is I think I should return to the UK but cannot come up with a reason to tell my family and friends there why I am returning so soon and feel very embarrassed about being a failure to such a catastrophic and expensive degree, confusion it’ll cause my daughter. I think I am willing to give Australia a few more months but over the last 2 weeks, I have found myself looking for reasons that people back home can sympathise with for my reason to return ( I really do not want to be seen as a failure as if I didn’t do my homework enough before emigrating). Ive thought of lying that I’ve been made redundant, I fell ill and couldn’t afford the medical bills……………………………..oh dear. I feel my Australian honey moon feeling ended as soon as I landed……..