Hi there, be careful. Once you open Pandora's box, there is no going back. But, I think you already have. You are already on your journey and it will always be an itch you need to scratch. I don't think any amount of yes or no verdicts will sway you as you will make a case for your own mind set anyway.
I have pinged and ponged. I have experienced the bad and good of Oz but I can honestly say that despite the absence of family in Oz, it is the better place to be. That is, for me.
You will go on your own journey.
Good luck X