Well we have been here in WA for just over two years and for the first time properly the realisation of what we have here hit me and I felt content.
Its been a long time coming and I haven't posted much on here at all because I didn't really want to put any negative slants on what is an exciting time for all of those who are going through the emigration process, although I did post from time to time about how I under estimated how I would feel when we arrived.
The first couple of months for me were really really hard, probably made harder when people would tell me how they had settled immediately and it felt like home as soon as they stepped off the plane. I doubted I would ever feel like that. Those first few weeks put our family under an immense amount of stress as we we were split in two halves - Eammon and our youngest loved it while me and our oldest would have stepped on the plane back home at the first opportunity.
Eammon was heartbroken that we felt this way and after weeks of discussion, tears, arguments I agreed to give it two years. I had a plan, I was going to save like crazy and as soon as the two years were up at least then we would have recouped some of the money we spent getting here. Our eldest would be starting 6th form and our youngest would have another year left before starting high school, so the timing could be just right!!!
Things got a little easier and our eldest began to love the aussie way of life too. I felt better about things too, but still never saw myself being here long term. It worried me a little, because now I was outnumbered - 3 to 1, but we had said if any one of us didn't want to be here once the two years would up, we would go home at least saying we gave it a go, so I still felt kind of safe that I was going to be able to 'escape'
So kind of not sure what has happened, but I am looking around me and I am feeling blessed to be here. I still miss certain aspects of my life back in the UK and (most of all) I still miss my bestest friend so much, but as I walked out of the house this morning to blue skies I felt very content.
It is hard when you first arrive. It is very tempting to rush in trying to build up loads of friends around you, but after a while I realised I didn't live in my friends or neighbours pockets in the UK so why should I feel that I had to do that here. After all, friendships back home were grown over a number of years. I have made some really good friends over here now who I feel confident enough to be able to say I can't make something this week without worrying I won't get invited next time, but I realise now all that comes with time.
I am sure I am not out of the woods yet and there will still be times that I long to be back home, but for now I'm making the most of feeling like this and off to sit in the back garden with a nice cold drink and a book.
Den x