Hey,
I just wanted to add a bit of input to this post as I can relate!
At school I had no confidence as I was badly bullied and suffered terrible social anxiety. I could not get out of my comfort zone but here I am wanting to travel Aus... Alone! My confidence built when I left school at 16 and went to work (it came with age also, 21 this year!) my first job was in a big retail store and I was exposed to all types of people. I believe exposing yourself is the only way you will build confidence. Feel the fear and do it anyway! You can not live your life to the full with this attitude, you have the typical cup half empty syndrome. Have you ever heard the song Suncreen by Baz Luhrmann? I think this quote will apply to you ' Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum ' ... Sorry if I sound like I'm grilling you but I wish when I felt the way I did (similar to your situation) I wish someone gave me a grill on life. I do think you are doubting yourself far too much, give yourself a bit more credit! You acknowledge you can be shy and you struggle to socialize and it is not like you want to be this way. That is a great step in itself. I think we all worry, I'm very confident in myself but I'm still nervous about meeting new people. Even the most confident people worry about stuff like this as Stacey said to me. I think when you expose youself, being shy will fade away. One day at a time, forcing youself to interact will not work. Start off small, get to know a handful of people and gradually build confidence :-)
Beth