Hot spud,you sound just like me. You have written exactly what I am going through.if it helps you are not alone in your predicament.I and friends are going through the same. Weird I know,i am going back to the UK on my own,I came here with my wife of 17yrs and three great kids, but leaving on my own.I know it sounds selfish but I have to do it for my own sanity. I have to regroup so to speak and like you I don't have the support here needed for that. Thus I am going back to stay with my brother and parents.dont feel ashamed in doing what feels best for you.i always thought about everyone else but for now it's me time.always pm if you like,a problem shared is a problem halved. All the best