feeling like a startled rabbit caught in headlights

[monty]

Hi everyone,

Its been ages since I've posted and I would like to say a big thankyou to everyone who have repiled to my posts in the past. Your advice and support has been invaluable. Well our house is sold, sorting out the dogs medicals/blood tests their booked to fly on 11th November and we are booked to fly out on the 14th Nov. We've been really busy sorting out shippers, personal effects and finances etc.. I know I should be feeling on top of the world notice is in at work only 3 weeks to go now, but all of a sudden I'm feeling frozen and motionless like I'm in shock, I feel nauseas and starting bursting in to tears at silly things like a song on the radio. Sometimes I feel like a startled rabbit caught in the headlights. These feelings have really caught me unaware and I'm starting to have lots of what if? thoughts. This is so out of character for me. I feel as though I'm losing the plot its 4am and I can't get back to sleep. Is this normal? Is it part of the process? Has anybody else gone through similar expereinces?


Monty

[ItsJo]

Aww Monty ya wouldnt be human if ya didnt feel like that at some point..So many of us have gone thru it and yes it is strange having exactly what you want and then feeling crap because of it all...For the last x amount of months you have been so very busy with everything..I think there has to come a time when you have to let out your emotions..it's a huge step you are taking into the unknown...Leaving everyone and everything you have ever known is one helluva scary thing to do...I had very mixed emotions and I still do..I started a diary in chewing the fat so it may help you to read it...I would cry at the slightest thing for no reason at all...I had many sleepless nights so hey dont be feeling that you are the only one...
We are all allowed to get down sometimes...Even when we have golden tickets in our hands :)
Ride the feelings, dont bottle them up, just let them out...You will smiling again soon xx

[The Broughtons]

Hey Monty,

I echo what Jo has said - you are only human and are bound to be going through an emotional whirlwind at the moment. We affectionately referred to our emotional outbursts as leaky eye syndrome. Silly things would spark it and we'd be laughing or smiling just as quickly. The last couple of weeks were really hard, me and my mum had a few moments where we started each other off but it's just one of those things you have to put up with.

Enjoy your last little while in the UK, keep visiting poms and share your feelings with us. Like Jo I did a diary in chewing the fat and I've moved into the blog section now. It helps to get it all off your chest and a virtual hug every once in a while does us all the world of good.

Chin up hun

Felicity

[monty]

Bless you Jo and Felicity
What warm kind people you are the hugs are lovely and warm and have given me some reassurance that I'm not going crazy and all of this emotional upside down stuff is normal and all part of the process. This mixed bag of emotions has really suprised me and I've been very tired and emotional. Thanks again guys for replying, I'm sure once I get on the plane and we have said our goodbyes Ill feel better.

Lots of love and hugs

Montyx

[samozsoon]

Hey Monty I know how you feel.
I feel sick all the while, all shaky inside too.

We go on Dec 9th, dogs off on Dec 8th. Loads still to do.
You fly on my eldests 18th birthday btw.
Good Luck I think once your on that flight (hopefully) you'll start to feel better.

Sam xx