In denial??!!

Hi,

Well in typical style, my family managed to achieve the one reaction i hadn't considered - they said they didn't want to talk about it!!

My mum and dad arrived an hour early of course, so we sat in the lounge chatting until the small talk ran dry, at which point we sat in silence for a few seconds too long (i HATE silences) so i decided to break the ice by blurting out "so, we're moving to Australia..." (its the first time i've mentioned it in front of my Dad, but i knew my mum had told him about it..)

They basically said nothing! My Mum said "we DO know meg... you HAVE already told me..." but i'd thought she thought it was all a silly fantasy, so i told her we had set a date for winter 2010. My Dad just said nothing (he's a man of few words anyway...), and that was it!

So then my sister and her family (my nephew is 3 and my niece is 3 months.) arrived late (of course) so there was a big rush for lunch, as it was getting overcooked... i was waiting for the right time to bring it up. But typically my Mum said something along the lines of "when your in Australia you won't....." and I gasped and turned and looked at my sister... who said "we do know Meg, mum told us..." I apolagised lots for not telling her sooner... she said she didn't want to talk about it because she was hoping we wouldn't go, but that she just wanted to say "you do know our children will never know each other..." (if you've read my other blogs you will know that we have been trying for a baby for a year now, so i found the presumption that i would have children a little insensitive - but i am extremely over sensetive about that issue anyway as my sister started trying for my niece the same time as me, and now she has a 3 month old and i have NADA! AND she's ten years older than me!.......deep breaths Megan........).

So i told her they would because we would visit and we would have webcams, and anyway "i might not have children."

But anyway, i tried to bring it up with my sister again later but the only other thing she said apart from "i don't want to talk about it - today is a nice day i don't want to spoil it..." was "we're going to have to find someone else to be guardians to our children in our will..."

Which, i have to say, hurt.

I said that if anything happened to them then the children could come and live in Australia with us, and she said "what if we don't want our children to grow up in Australia?" At which point i decided to bite my tongue, and leave it. But i have to say i am just a little hacked off at the implications that they are in a way threatening to disown me if i go.

Anyway, give them time i suppose (and we have plenty of it!)