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Wow, what an interesting read this thread has been. So here's my bit,
To answer the original question, no I am not leaving my family. Having been in oz before be only for 6 mths, I never felt I was leaving my family. They will always be there no matter where I am in the world.
But will I be upset about leaving them. Well because they are my family and I guess you unconditionally love them. However, I must admit if my dad had still be alive he died over 10 years ago, then I don't think I would be doing this. He was my hero, I worshipped the ground he walked on and its only be last 3 years that I can talk about him without bursting into tears.
As for the rest of the crew, well in effect I was an only child. I have 4 other half siblings, 2 sisters and 2 brothers. 1 brother I wouldn't even know who he was if I pass him on the street. The other brother, well hes planning to emigrate to maylasia with his wife who is from there. My sisters, the oldest one does what she wants when she wants, she has 2 grown my sons and is always busy "finding herself" and the other sister is battling severe depression and alcoholism. I suspect she will stop talking to me when she finds out and she normal does when I make major decisions in my life, basically because she doesn't have the guts to sort out her own unhappy life and thinks the answer is at the end of the a bottle of wine.
I will miss my two nephews and my niece. But hope in time they may come out on a working holiday visa.
As for my mum, well we have never been particular close, she lives in Berkshire, I live in North Yorkshire. I see her about 3 times a year. There is no way I could live near her, she would drive me nuts. But I do love her and she does mean well. The trouble is she sees me as the bit of my dad left so I know she will find it hard when I tell her. The thing I have to come to terms with is that I will probably not see her alive again. Unless we do make that visit back at the end of the initial first 2 years we plan to do. My mum will be 75 this year, so who knows, her health is not brilliant but it could be worse, so who knows. But I do have to prepare myself for the fact I might never see her again.
I have always lived away from my family, so don't rely on them for anything. So I do feel thats half the battle won already.
Oh is the same with his family, apart from his mum he is not really bother about leaving the rest of them.
Hope I haven't bored anyone.
Mandisfam
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