[yvetteb1]

arrrhhggggghhhh!!!!!
never had so many mixed emotions as i have in the last few months. can't blame my family for not wanting me to go, but wish they could make me feel a little less guilty. all i keep saying to them is that from now on it's going to be different, but different can't be all bad, can it? if we didn't do things because they were going to be different from what we are used to, nobody would do anything! trouble is my mother in law does not do anything new or try anything new BECAUSE it is different, so can't really convince her! just be strong ( and a tad selfish - selfish is good) to do what it is right for you and your family. xx