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Hi,
Your post is so familiar it could be a post from me!! 18 months ago. I had all the exact feelings and one more than one occassion got the shipping companies in for estimates to go back, and like you it was ME who wanted this more than anyone, as Gill said, if there is any family that could come over then, it definately helps. I completely closed myself off when I went through this, and did not want to make friends with anyone, but I also complained that people were unfriendly!! I also had my daughter sent back to UK for trouble with her visa, that was not her fault, she is still there now and due back any day after a long hard fight, so depression, kicked in very early with me, and every day was a black day, we moved up to Cairns, away from Melbourne and the unfortunate start we had there, and things started to look brighter, we did have family come out to which helped, and skype, and cheap phone calls, but I always felt that we were missing out, and we also agreed to do the 2 year stint regardless, and put it down to experience, hubby also very supportive, and like yourself, thousands spent in moving costs!, I also beat myself up every day, and blamed myself for all the upset and mess I had caused, thankfully nobody else was thinking that way! another helpful tip is to look at the reasons that you wanted to leave, they are still there, and when I was told to do that, I immediately saw all the wonderful things about UK, that really did not exsist, I so know how you feel, and I also know that you will read this and all the other posts and think "yes but I really do not like it, and no one knows how I feel" we do, and if anyone had of told me 18 months ago that I would be giving this advice to someone then I would have told them to go and get certified!! amongst other things. I do hope you can see this through. Karen
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